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it's over...
Monday, April 10, 2006
received a sms on sat nite. it read "i think we should juz leave things as it is..." i questioned, hoping and trying to work things out. then came a second sms "dont wanna get attached anymore"

tat was the last i had heard from him since then. he stopped replying after tat. he chose not to answer my question. it felt kinda "unfinished". it was painful. really painful. i was torn. heartbroken. my heart aches whenever i think of him, talked abt him to frens. i couldnt control my tears. they come so naturally.

decided to take a cab home on sunday morning. i needed the comfort of my own home to help me feel better. my mum came back frm work and realised i've been crying. she knew wat happened. and i cried when she tried to console me.

my mum: dun cry... there's tons of men out there. no point crying over him. must be strong and let him see.

its heartening to have ur family there. but somehow i cried whenever they showed their concerns. was watching Oprah show on tv today... and some of the phrases mentioned seemed particularly apt for me..

"riddled by all the if-onlys"
"letting go is giving up on the hope that the past would have been any different"

time will heal all wounds. i know it will.
glanced at the mirror at 11:14 PM