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    | random ramblings - i love my sister. i think i am close to my sister although i do not tell her about my personal problems. well rarely. but im veri dependent on her. her opinions matter alot to me. esp when it comes to clothes. hah. and i really doubt i can live without her. but stimes, she can really drive me farking crazy. she can be so selfish and stingy tat stimes i just wanna *******. why is it so hard to borrow a bag when its clearly sitting at the corner collecting dust?! why must there be such a defining line drawn between our things? i dun get it. i know stimes im like tat too and tats becoz i want u to feel how sucky it feels to be treated the exact same way. i really hate it to be at the receiving end. like wtf.
 
 - i do not like to be linked (romantically) with people tat im clearly nt romantically interested in. although i do not show it, it gets really awkward and i dun like it.
 
 - i do not like how hierarchical structured my company is. how some snrs like to show their superiority to the assistants. i wish to work in an environment in which everyone's like a family and is not so structured and i would know all the colleagues. coz currently, i duno more than half the pple sitting around me. which is really sad.
 
 - i wish i know what i wanna do.
 
 - stimes i feel really stupid coz i duno wat my frens are talking abt. and it doesnt really help being scolded by them even if they're just joking.
 
 - i dun have many close girl friends. girls can be really quite bitchy stimes. even to their own close frens and i cant stand it. i admit i do tat stimes but when i think abt it, somehow it makes all the frenships look rather superficial. do i sound like a guy?? hah. im really thankful for having jane and vim in my life.
 
 - i find it very hard to open up to people.
 
 - does buying branded bags make me materialistic?
 
 - i am very conscious of wat pple think of me.
 
 - i am more tolerant towards my frens than my own family.
 
 - stimes im really rude to my family.
 
 - stimes i picture my wedding... and wonder if i can have both bridesmaid and best men.
 
 - i dun get irritated by frens easily, but when i say i am irritated, i really mean it.
 
 - i think i have alot of superficial friendships.
 
 - its quite upsetting when i think of some of the friendships i've forged in the past have become so shallow now. i hope this does not happen to the people i hang out with right now. coz these are the pple i call my brothers and sisters.
 
 - i do not like my ex-boyfriends. i duno if i hate them. i may have gotten past whatever has happened but i canot forget them.
 
 - two most loved but only loved by one.
 
 - i know i shld get over u but i cant. and i duno if i want to.
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